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~ Monday, September 15 ~
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Today I realized I haven’t been happy for a very long time. I broke down and now its time to bounce back, even if I’m stuck in the gutters. What a rollercoaster ride of emotions the last few weeks have been. 

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~ Sunday, August 31 ~
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So this song has sunk in, after I’ve avoided listening to it since May. I thought I was okay, and I think I am. Its been two weeks since the News and I think I’m doing fine. I’m coping. But each time this song is on air, I think back to the halcyon months of December, January and February. And I think of the k sessions and how we would belt out to this song. It’ll always be the song whenever I think back. I kind of miss you, friend. Somehow, its still a little hard calling you my friend, but I think that’s what we are. Perhaps I wasn’t meant to go there, that’s why I couldn’t in the end. Perhaps, I’m meant to stay here. You said that you know I’ve straightened out my thoughts, but my feelings are all in a state of flux. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere—not here, not Shanghai…I need to find a place I can call my own again.

 It’s gonna be a new semester, it is  a new semester. Have a good one, friend. See you next year. 

旅行那么的难忘,也有终结的一天。
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~ Saturday, August 23 ~
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~ Wednesday, August 20 ~
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What scares me is that I’m taking this way too calmly. I think I’ll take awhile to be okay again. This shouldn’t be it this shouldn’t be it a hundred possibilities await but this shouldn’t be…it. Not now. I don’t belong here, at least for now. I can imagine myself living a whole different life on the other side and i will rather be anywhere but here. At least for now. This, is what is killing me inside, bit by bit. I feel the love around me, but it’s not enough. Not for now. You don’t take Xanax to ease the headache, nor do you take paracetamol to send the cancer into remission. The love I’m receiving…I’m grateful but I’m still not okay. Just for today, I’m not. But I’m trying. I really am.

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~ Monday, August 18 ~
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Ground Zero

The last few days have been difficult. Very glad to have my friends around, I love all of you. Special thanks must be made to the two Ds, M, G and B for helping me get through the night and the morning after. Idk where to go from here, but I know I’ll keep moving and sometimes in life, that’s all that matters. 

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~ Monday, August 11 ~
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This song hits all the spots that can potentially hurt. 

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~ Wednesday, August 6 ~
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You are the love that came without warning.

This song, feels so right in this instant. 

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~ Friday, August 1 ~
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So my internship has come to an end. Effectively, summer break has also come to an end. It’s been an exhausting three months and a grueling five weeks, but I’m glad I made it through. The last five weeks have been especially memorable and there’s nothing in the world quite like it. I will commit this episode of my life to my memory and hope that somehow, all our paths would align again. And to the veterans, I can only wish them good health, and hope that I will one day, see them again. And talk about the good old days. I really hope so. Nothing pains me more than saying goodbye, yet the world stops for no one.

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